MISSING...

i missed u a alot yday......just wanted to hear ur voice...or see u smile.
i was neck deep in work and still missed u.
it happens many times but some days are worse than the others......
i cannot pinpoint the reason......it dosnt happen when i am sad or happy.......
it has nothing to do with me feeling lonely....
i miss u out of the blue and then,it lasts many hours or a whole day.
i am miserable and i think i like it.....
i dont communicate in that phase coz i am beside myself.
its funny and a phenomenon utterly unlike any other in my life.
u seem to creep up on me...slowly and silently....gripping my day firmly.......
leaving me unable to shake u off....
and believe me,i try....a lot.
i wd love to know what triggers it,....may be then i can make it go away......
or may be i dont mind it so much...hence i dont try 100%.
ur like an old,soft blanket...warm and safe....n i love being enveloped...
as i cant meet u,this is as close to meeting u,as i can get.
anyways,the days that i miss u,i wonder why?....
n then the days when i dont,....i wonder,when again?